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Insecurity

Insecurity in relationships can have devastating and long lasting effects. When we allow our emotions to control our mouths, we have lost control, and a downward spiral begins. I call this diarrhea of the mouth. We have become so obsessed with something we “think” is going on, moving from a place of reality, to a fantasy world filled with the demons we place in them, that we lose sight of what is really going on. In most cases, nothing. The mind is a very strong and powerful thing. It tends to take control, and it gets the best of us when we allow it.

The following explores the top reason why this occurs. The top reasons I found were a lack of confidence, fear of judgement, and past experiences. While we would like to believe the world is touchy feely, in reality, it is a very harsh and unforgiving place. People lack confidence because of the things they have experienced. People can be cruel. Not everyone is blessed with a perfect smile, shape, money, or outgoing personality. Many people do not know how to overcome these issues either, so when insecurity strikes, it hits with the force of a tornado, total chaos and loss of control.

Fear of judgement has its own issues. People tend to fail to act because they are afraid of what others might think. Because they fail to try, they never know what they are capable of doing. In other words, they never reach their true potential, find their true calling in life, or meet the person who is out there for them. Every person is judgmental because we come from different backgrounds, cultures, and family beliefs. These things shape what we believe and how we act.

Our past experiences play a role in our insecurity. If we have hurt someone in the past, then, we are afraid they will do it to us. Trust in any relationship is paramount. Let me be clear. Cheating is cheating. Mentally, emotionally, or physically, they are all considered cheating. Texting or talking in a manner less than professional to someone of the opposite sex is not acceptable. In every situation, be respectful to your spouse and their feelings. This will increase their level of trust in you, and it will greatly decrease their level of insecurity.

I believe lacking confidence, fear of judgement, and past experiences are interconnected. If you have one, you have all three, but that is just my opinion. Personally. I have always had a problem with confidence. My other half would greatly disagree, but it is the truth. I was never in the popular crowd, I grew up poor, and I was an introvert. It took at least 23 years to reverse it, but it came with a price. Each one of us has our own demons, we just have to find a way to deal with them so insecurity doesn’t take over.

In the end, there is no easy fix. It take time, hard work, and understanding of the underlying causes of being insecure. There is no cook book why to fix it. Each person knows themselves better than anyone else. Think about your life and why you feel insecure. Then, take constructive action to fix it. Not every day is going to be easy, so confide in someone you can trust. Let them provide feedback, and utilize it to your advantage so you can grow as a person. In regards to relationships, if one is insecure, take the time to listen, and work on it together. Reassurance is an amazing thing. Be thoughtful, compassionate, and understanding, as this will serve you both well, drawing you closer to each other, diminishing the fear if insecurity.

 


Mother’s Day Tribute

Tomorrow is a one of the most special days of the year, Mother’s Day. I would like to pay tribute to my mom and my better half.

 

Mom

I want to take this time to tell you how thankful I am you are my mother. You are an inspiration to me. I have always said if I could be a ¼ of the parent you have been to me, I would be a success. You worked three jobs to put me through school, you sacrificed more than any parent should have too, and you have been supportive my entire life.

You ask for nothing, expect nothing, and I often wonder why. As I have grown older what I have realized is what you have done the last 45 years wasn’t easy at all. While I have accomplished a lot of things in my life to make you proud of me, my greatest accomplishment didn’t occur until 10 plus months ago when I transformed from a boy to a man. Many people may laugh at that statement, but I never took responsibility or accountability for my actions outside of doing my job. I was selfish, and I didn’t appreciate the things in my life. YOU always stood firm in your beliefs, and you gave me words of encouragement when I was down. Though you may have judged me, you never let me know it. Instead, you helped me grow at my own pace, even though it took half a life time.

On this Mother’s Day I want you to know I love you. Thank you so much for all you have done for me my entire life. Thank you for the hard work and patience you have shown me. I know I am difficult, but I want you to know you are the best mom in the world. This day is for you and about you. I hope I have made you proud of me, and I hope you have the Happiest Mother’s Day to date.

 

My Beautiful Bride

Wow! You have shown me so much. This day is all about you. You continue to amaze me every day. I have grown to enjoy life because of the things you have shown me. I am so proud of you and the things you have accomplished in life. You are without a doubt the best woman this world has ever seen.

You are a survivalist in many aspects. From rich to poor and everything in between, you have made and continue to make sacrifices for the family. Your love and affection for us and life is something I could never put into words. I am the luckiest man in the world, and I never take one second, or one minute of my life with you for granted. Thank you for loving me, thank you for believing in me, thank you for your encouragement, thank you for your patience when I had none, but most importantly, thank you for all the sacrifices you have made and for showing me what life has to offer. You have shown me life is about family, and I will spend the rest of this life and the next showing you how much I love you. I will always take care of you and the kids.

You have raised the kids the best possible way you know how. I know at times you have doubts, put them aside, you are a great mother. You have went without food so they could eat, you have bought them clothes, while you get yourself nothing, and you have juggled bills, so they could have more. Sacrifice is what it’s all about. You are a shining example for other mothers around the globe. You set the standard and raise the bar. You love and cherish every ball game and car ride to school, and you make sure they are well fed and taken care of every day. It is not about money. Instead, it is about love and devotion. They will remember that longer than any vacation or shining new toy.

On this Mother’s Day… know this, I love you and everything about you. I will spend the rest of my life learning more about you and falling in love with you again and again. Take this day and relax, do nothing, and know that all your sacrifices were worth it. I love you.

In the end, Mother’s Day is a day for mothers. However, their tireless efforts continue every single day, sick or injured, they are ready for battle. No one messes with a mom because they are a bad-ass. No weapon, animal, or human will ever come between a mother and their children. Thank you for all you do every day moms, and thank you for holding your heads high, pushing forward, and proving to all of us, women are much more powerful then men will ever be. God Bless.

 

 


Do Not Shut Me Out!

Besides financial problems, the single biggest problem in relationships is the inability to communicate. The inability to speak to your significant other about your feelings, concerns, and emotions is a huge problem. Weather you ask any relationship or religious expert, examine online resources, or read any library or text books, they will tell you active listening is paramount in resolving any conflict. If something is bothering your significant other enough to mention it, then you should take the time to listen. It doesn’t matter if they have mentioned it hundred times, obviously something is making them feel that way and the issues need to be readdressed. However, these issues need to be actively resolved and not pushed to the side.

 

What ends up happening is that if it continues to not be resolved, it continues to build up until neither party can resolve the issue because the situation has switched gears from conflict resolution to one of personal attacks. It is the total lack of communication by both people that end up causing the cycle to continue. Why? Because they are so involved in their own emotions that they are unable to see outside their sphere. They become blinded, deaf, and in the end, shut each other out while trying to make things better.

 

While you might be thinking that listening is an easy thing to do, in actuality, it is the hardest thing for a person to do. Many of us, including myself, take things personal. It is NOT personal, it is NOT an attack, and it is one of the greatest gifts you can give someone. You must actually put things into action and not let things happen again. Do not shut the other person out when all they are trying to do is communicate with you in a respectful manner.

 

In the end, you chose each other. Be loving, understand, and kind. You only have each other, so take the time to resolve conflict the same way you love each other when things are wonderful. It will bring you closer together, create mutual happiness, and take the relationship to a whole new level.


Making the Most of Today

Today is a new day. The reset button has been hit just for you. No matter what the day before brought you, today is a fresh start. Today should bring you clarity, hope, and vision. Let go of yesterday, push forward, forgive one another, and love with all your heart. Holding on to the past brings resentment, anger in some cases, and negativity. Flip the switch, move forward and “live, laugh, and love” with the person in your life who will go through hell and back with you. In the end, they are the only one who truly loves you and whom you can trust. They are your rock.  Let them know how much you appreciate them,  and how much you love them.  It is a fresh start, a clean slate, so make the most of today and your life with them.


Fireproof

Yesterday showed me just how wrong I have been, when I thought I was actually right about everything. I genuinely thought in my mind I was doing everything, everyday the right way. I am faithful, loyal, committed, passionately in love with my bride, and I always do whatever I can for her in order to take the burden off her shoulders. Boy, was I wrong! Relationships take work, time, and commitment. Until you uncover the root cause of the issues you as an individual are facing, you will continue to have problems. I never thought I was the one who had problems. I just needed her to listen to my concerns. This was the wrong approach to take.

 

We watched Fireproof as a family. If you care at all about your marriage or your relationship, then it is a movie to watch. Moreover, there are online resources to utilize to help you in this journey. It is a very emotional process, and it makes you face tough issues, but is it the best thing out there for truly understanding how to love one another. It is for serious people who genuinely care about their significant other and their relationship. This is something you can do together, so throw your heart and soul into it, and never look back. I will always “study” her, and I will always do what I can every single day to show her how much I love her. The movie showed me that I never knew how to love myself, so how could I love her properly, if I couldn’t understand how to do so?

 

It is about faith and religion, and its application is geared towards whatever higher being you believe in. Additionally, I realized I cannot shoulder everything. I need guidance. While I thought I was doing everything in my power to meet her needs, I was failing in some aspects which were sensitive for us to discuss and probably the most important. Open and honest communication is necessary in any relationship, so put your pride aside, watch, actively listen, and put a plan into action together. This is a lifestyle change, not just a fix. You will see that both of you will reap the rewards by loving and growing with each other more than you ever thought possible.

 

As in all things I do, thank you for honey for loving me, being patient, and for all you do. This is for you and girls.


Make Every Day Count

Each morning is a new opportunity. You can reach for the stars or reach for the couch. Whatever you think will make your day better, by all means do it. There is no right or wrong way to spend your time. Society places a huge amount of emphasis on accomplishing things and getting things done. What are those things? Mowing the yard? Shopping? Making dinner for the family? Going to the gym? The only person who knows if you made the most of the day is you. If you want to take a day off from work and do nothing but watch T.V. and sleep, then do it! If you want to spend time with your husband or wife, then do it! However, I believe those intangible qualities in a human being to be selfless, and share their time with the person they love the most, tend to create the most loving memories for those involved. This is how I make every day count. I love spending time with my beautiful bride to be and the kids. Nothing will ever replace those memories, nor the precious time I get to spend with them.


New Year and a Fresh Start

Many people look at the beginning of the year as a catalyst to start over. It is an opportunity to accomplish things that were not done the year before. Many people want to get into better shape, eat better, become financially sound, accomplish certain resolutions, or just be a better person. Whatever your reason, do not let anyone deter you from accomplishing your goals. You are older, wiser, and savvier than the year before. Try looking at things from a different perspective, love with all your heart, and live life to the fullest with people who love you the most. The past is just that, the past, and it is the past for a reason. Learn from your mistakes, correct the worse things about yourself, and be proactive instead of reactive. Constantly putting stuff off accomplishes nothing, so have the discipline and vision to get things done. Constantly hold yourself accountable, admit when you are wrong, and work on your communication skills. Exercise, eat right, find emotional stability within yourself, and feed your brain with knowledge. Do not let failure get in your way. Instead, embrace it. Push forward over any speed bumps, and surround yourself with people you trust and who will encourage you. Negativity is the root of failure. Constantly strive to distance yourself from those things that will prevent you from accomplishing your goals. In the end, each second wasted is a second of your life you will never get back again.


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